It has been a crazy past few months (hence me not posting on the blog for a while). Being overwhelmed and stress were my usual mental states. At times it felt I couldn’t catch a breath. Looking back, I can see that God was speaking a word to me early in August, almost in preparation for going back to school.
“Be still and know that I am God.”
Very simple, very short, and yet so very profound. At the time it made no sense to me. I responded to God, “Okay, yeah sure!”, and went on my merry way preparing for school/organizing my life. Little did I know how significant this message would become. It was as if He knew that August and September would be anything BUT stillness in my life.
Amidst God’s message of stillness, He has also been speaking joy and peace. It is so easy for me to get caught up in the tasks of every day life. I forget to cherish the life God has given me. Even more than that, the unwavering love he gives me that I don’t at all deserve. I understand peace as finding comfort in God even though my life is full of distress. It is more than contentment. It is feeling fulfilled because of God’s promises to me; the realization that He will complete a good work in me.
These concepts of joy and peace have beautifully intertwined to create stillness.
If you know me, you know that stillness is the antithesis of my personality. I’m going from place to place, taking classes, doing an internship, and helping friends. I’m in a hurry to get all these things done. I want to accomplish and set myself up for a good future. I’m making a plan for myself, but what about God’s plan? His plan has been running parallel to my own. I go to it when my own fails. Instead, how about I let His plan cross over and become the forefront of my life?
I know, I don’t like to give up control, so this is pretty painful for me to think about.
There is no need for me to hurry. Why? Because God is taking His time. It is His plan we’re talking about now, not mine. I can sit in stillness. Stillness of mind, heart, and spirit.
I can put to rest any anxiety and sit in His presence. Not only sit, but enjoy it. I can take a deep breath and fill my lungs. I hold onto that for a moment, chest slightly raised and eyes closed. Release. I let go of that breath, open my eyes, and feel His warmth. With this moment of stillness, I am receptive to God’s embrace and reassurance. Reassurance that I will be okay (actually, more than okay), that “I will not fall”, and that He will help me “at the break of day” (Psalm 46:5).
Like a father, he encourages me to take in everything around me. His affection puts a small smile on my face. I then look up, and take in the vast scenery surrounding me. The beauty of His creation.
“He says, ‘Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth.’
The Lord Almighty is with us;
the God of Jacob is our fortress.”
Here is a song that has reminded me of God’s promise that He will never leave me so I can rest in stillness. Give it a listen! Steady Heart- Steffany Gretzinger